Friday, April 26, 2013

Emily and Chris Start Over - Chapter Twenty Five

We have finished moving before a snow storm has moved in. I even try to get creative with a simple snow man in the back yard. I think I did quite well as I stand back admiring my work.

It's growing late so I head up to get ready for bed. Our bedroom is located on the second floor of our new appartment.

I'm already in bed when Chris finishes up in the bathroom. He walks over wearing his grey pj bottoms that hang so nicely off his hips. He smiles at me as he climbs into bed. 

As the lights go out I curl up to Chris's back. We have decided to take things slow and he's good about keeping his word. We share a bed which has made my nightmares go away. I sleep so much better with Chris by my side. I feel safe once again. 

I'm standing in the kitchen getting read to start some breakfast when I feel a flutter in my belly. It takes me by surprise as I rub my little bump. 

I start on the waffles when Chris walks in and takes a seat at the breakfast bar. I put on a little show for him which makes him smile. I can't help but smirk at him. It's the first day in our new home and it feels so great. 

He pulls out a book which doesn't surprise me. He's such a book worm. I never meet a guy who loves to read like he does. I walk over to the oven and watch my waffles as they finish cooking. 

After we eat Chris pulls out the morning paper and begins to read while I head upstairs to get ready for my first doctors appointment. 

We arrive at the hospital to see the doctor. We sign in at the front desk. I'm so excited for some strange reason.   

They call me in and take me into a exam room. A nurse takes my vitals and a sample of my blood. 

"Just lay back and we will get some measurements and a ultrasound to see how far along you are," she tells me as she helps me lay back.  

After she's all done with me, I sit up and wait on the doctor to come in. 

A young doctor in his early thirty's comes in. "Lets take a look. According to your ultrasounds you are five months pregnant. The baby looks really healthy," he adds. 

He takes us in his office to discuss the results to my tests. "So I already told you that you were five months pregnant. Your blood work looks good and the baby seems to be healthy. Do you want to know what your having?" he asks. 

I look over at Chris who raises a eyebrow at me. I know he's really supportive, but this makes it so real. A little baby growing in my belly. "So do we want to know?" I ask Chris. "I would like to wait, it would be nice to have a surprise," he says. 

I think about it for a minute. "I think we will wait to find out what were having," I tell the doctor. He nods and writes something down in my chart. 

"Congratulations again. If you have any problems just let us know and we will get you in," he says as he shakes Chris's hand. 

Nice weather has set in as Chris and I have settled into the simple life. We even have a small pool in the back yard. As were taking a dip he splashes me. 

I give him a dirty look which makes him pout. I can't keep the smile off my face he pouts even bigger. 
The nice weather is a boost in spirits. Chris and I decide to hang out on the couch. He loves to cuddle as we watch tv. 

I feel myself getting tired and instead of heading upstairs to lay down, I use Chris as a personal pillow. He doesn't mind at all as he strokes my cheek as I drift off to sleep. 

 I figure I have napped for a while as I look up to see I haven't moved in over a hour and Chris seems so content watching tv. I stretch out as I sit up.  

Chris rubs my belly as now it has grown to a cute little bump. The baby has started to really move now. 

"Its going to be so neat having a little one running around here," he says as he rubs my belly once again. 

Its getting late and Chris wants to head out and watch the starts. What a hopeless romantic he has become. I never thought he was so sweet even after all the years that I have known him. I look at this man and see how much he truly cares about me. It moves me in ways that I could never imagine. 

Friday, April 19, 2013

Goodbye's - Chapter Twenty Four

Alex has accepted me and Chris as a couple. Even though I still find it hard to think of us as a together that way. He said he would take it slow with me. Alex seems more relaxed around me and has backed off. 

Now that I know that I'm pregnant I have noticed I crave certain foods. And a peanutbutter sandwich seems to be on the top of my list today. I head to the kitchen to make me a sandwich. It tastes so good as I wolf it down fast.

Getting ready to head out to take a dip I feel this sick feeling hit me. I have the sudden urge to run to the bathroom. I have also noticed that I get hit with sickness quite often. I can't seem to keep much down these days.

It always seems like I get hit when I least expect it. Grabbing my stomach and trying to hold my contents down I dash to the bathroom.

As unladylike as I am, I hurl up all my lunch.

Geeze this baby is putting me to the test. I regain myself as my stomach eases up and I can finally get up off the floor.

Finding some time to myself is wonderful. The guys are out fooling around the yard while I take to the piano. The sound alone takes me to places of joy. I loose myself in the song.

I head outside to see what the guys are up too. They are both raking the falling leaves as fall has set in. I personally don't see why since the trees will keep making a mess until there are no more leaves, but they seem content in their efforts to clear the yard.

Chris is hard at work looking all cute in his sweater and jeans. 

I walk around the yard when a squirl runs out in front of me. I find him amusing as he runs circles around my feet.

Chris startles me when he walks right up on me. "You scared me," I say as Chris smiles at me.

Pulling me into his arms he kisses me briefly and then pulls back as he grins at me. "What are you grinning at?" I ask. "You, your so happy. It melts my heart to see you smile," he says.

 In the game room I challenge Chris to some ping pong. He dominates the game leaving me winded and running for the ball. 

 After he has finally beat the pants off me, he pulls me into the living room. He leans over and turns on the stereo.  Lovely music fills the room as Chris pulls me into his arms. "Dance with me," he says as he begins to sway. 

 He spins me taking me by surprise. He never ceases to amaze me with his graceful moves. Is there anything he doesn't know how to do I think to myself as I grin at him. 

Tomorrow will be the first day of our new life. The house is quite pretty and fully ready for us to move into," he says as he twirls me again. I grip his arms as he pulls me close. I kiss his lips as I smile. I couldn't be more happy as I am right now. 

"You are a amazing and kind man. I can not repay your kindness that you have shown me and Chris in this dark time of my life," I tell Alex. "You and Chris are always welcomed here. I have really enjoyed your company," he says. 

 Before I can say anything eles. "Oh and if you ever change your mind.........You know where to find me," he smirks. I find that I'm smiling and grinning back. 

  "I will give you a call when we get to the house. It's not far from here and it will be close to my new job," Chris tells Alex. 

I give Alex a hung goodbye as me and Chris leave. The world is ours for the taking and now is the time to reclaim my life. I can now have the life that I always dreamed about. A simple life with a family to love and no drama of being royal. The thought makes me smile.

Friday, April 12, 2013

What Now? Chapter Twenty Three

I'm exhausted as I head upstairs to lay down for a bit. I can barely hold my eyes open. I fear that I may be coming down with something.

I don't even bother to take my shoes off or even pull the covers back. I flop down onto the bed and curl up. I close my eyes and before I know it I have sleep for about a hour when I wake up.

I head to the bathroom as I get hit with a dizzy spell. I grab the sink to steady myself as I regain my balance and my head clears. 

What's wrong with me, I can't put my finger on it. I'm sick, tired and my body is all against me. Then I'm hit with another thought. My heart stops..........................I can't be. 

I head to the store and find myself sneaking back to the bathroom. I pull out the box that contains a pregnancy test. I had been under so much stress that it hadn't dawned on me that I had not been getting my period for quite some time. I take a quick shower as my mind races and the anxiety spikes. I pull out the test after I get out and pee on the strip. I stand in front of the sink as I watch the test. Its a agonizing wait. 

I stair at it and a dark pink line is already in one window of the test. I wait and then another line starts to appear. I'm panicking as I glance over at the box to see what two lines mean. I know I already know but I don't want to be wrong. 

I'm pregnant, oh no. I'm shocked. It all makes sense now. All the symptoms that I was experiencing wasn't stress it was because I was pregnant. 

I'm then hit with another realization Dimiti's the father. It's his baby. My heart aches as Dimitri's beautiful face flashes in my memory.
I have a piece of him with me. I hold my stomach as I try to imagine a little boy with dark hair that looks like his daddy. Oh its such a beautiful thought. 

Then I'm hit with sadness. I will only be reminded of my loss and all that I went through as I look at this beautiful, innocent child. I fall to my knees as the tears run down my cheeks and I cry big gut wrenching sobs. 

Chris comes running in to find me crying on the floor. He pulls me up to my feet as I rub my tears from my face. "Emily what's wrong," he asks as he wipes a tear that escapes down my cheek. 

I walk over to the test that I dropped on the floor. I kneel down and as I look up at Chris he has no clue on what I'm about to tell him. "I'm pregnant," I choke out. 

Chris gasps. "I didn't know. I thought it was stress," I cry out as my tears start again. 

Chris pulls me off the floor for the second time and pulls me to him. He wipes the tears from my face as he tilts my chin up to meet his soft gaze. 

"Emily, I don't care. I know its Dimitri's baby. He was my best friend. It just makes me want to protect you more and now a little one. I will take care of you both," he whispers. 

I'm floored by his response. So no more crying, please. I hate to see you cry. I know it wasn't expected but we will get passed this," he says. 

"Chris, you are a amazing man. I'm lucky to have you," I tell him. He grins down at me.

"So I guess we need to start thinking about getting a place of our own," he says as a small smile plays on his lips. I gasp................."You never cease to amaze me," I tease as I raise a eyebrow at him.