I'm exhausted as I head upstairs to lay down for a bit. I can barely hold my eyes open. I fear that I may be coming down with something.
I don't even bother to take my shoes off or even pull the covers back. I flop down onto the bed and curl up. I close my eyes and before I know it I have sleep for about a hour when I wake up.
I head to the bathroom as I get hit with a dizzy spell. I grab the sink to steady myself as I regain my balance and my head clears.
What's wrong with me, I can't put my finger on it. I'm sick, tired and my body is all against me. Then I'm hit with another thought. My heart stops..........................I can't be.
I head to the store and find myself sneaking back to the bathroom. I pull out the box that contains a pregnancy test. I had been under so much stress that it hadn't dawned on me that I had not been getting my period for quite some time. I take a quick shower as my mind races and the anxiety spikes. I pull out the test after I get out and pee on the strip. I stand in front of the sink as I watch the test. Its a agonizing wait.
I stair at it and a dark pink line is already in one window of the test. I wait and then another line starts to appear. I'm panicking as I glance over at the box to see what two lines mean. I know I already know but I don't want to be wrong.
I'm pregnant, oh no. I'm shocked. It all makes sense now. All the symptoms that I was experiencing wasn't stress it was because I was pregnant.
I'm then hit with another realization Dimiti's the father. It's his baby. My heart aches as Dimitri's beautiful face flashes in my memory.
I have a piece of him with me. I hold my stomach as I try to imagine a little boy with dark hair that looks like his daddy. Oh its such a beautiful thought.
Then I'm hit with sadness. I will only be reminded of my loss and all that I went through as I look at this beautiful, innocent child. I fall to my knees as the tears run down my cheeks and I cry big gut wrenching sobs.
Chris comes running in to find me crying on the floor. He pulls me up to my feet as I rub my tears from my face. "Emily what's wrong," he asks as he wipes a tear that escapes down my cheek.
I walk over to the test that I dropped on the floor. I kneel down and as I look up at Chris he has no clue on what I'm about to tell him. "I'm pregnant," I choke out.
Chris gasps. "I didn't know. I thought it was stress," I cry out as my tears start again.
Chris pulls me off the floor for the second time and pulls me to him. He wipes the tears from my face as he tilts my chin up to meet his soft gaze.
"Emily, I don't care. I know its Dimitri's baby. He was my best friend. It just makes me want to protect you more and now a little one. I will take care of you both," he whispers.
I'm floored by his response. So no more crying, please. I hate to see you cry. I know it wasn't expected but we will get passed this," he says.
"Chris, you are a amazing man. I'm lucky to have you," I tell him. He grins down at me.
"So I guess we need to start thinking about getting a place of our own," he says as a small smile plays on his lips. I gasp................."You never cease to amaze me," I tease as I raise a eyebrow at him.