Chris sets off to go to work leaving me alone in our new house we are renting. I give him a hug followed by a long kiss. "I will see you soon," he says. I grin at him as he leaves.
I work on the kitchen getting it all cleaned up, finding myself really tired. I stay wore out now that I'm pregnant. It's gotten a lot better the further along I progress in my pregnancy.
Heading upstairs I lay down on the bed welcoming its comfort. Before I know it I fall into a deep sleep.
I'm woke up with a strange pain. I sit up swinging my legs over the edge of the bed. I rub my face trying to get my bearings. I must have had a nightmare again. They are always so real.
Still disoriented a sharp pain rips through my stomach. Grabbing my belly I can feel how hard its becoming. The cramping is getting worse as I try to steady myself as another sharp pain starts.
When I regain myself I notice there is blood on my hands. My heart races at the sight. I'm so confused, until I look down.
I have blood all over my paints and I know where its coming from. I pull out my phone and dial Chris. He answers on the second ring. "Chris, help! It's the baby! I think I'm loosing it," I cry out. "I'm on my way. I should be there in a few minutes, be ready when I get there. We will head to the hospital," he commands with panic.
I take a steady breath and walk downstairs. The pain is getting worse with every step I take. I'm almost to the bottom of the steps when I grab a hold of the railing to steady myself as I feel light headed.
When I get to the bottom of the stairs I make it only a few feet when I collapse to the ground. Everything is starting to spin and I can feel myself about ready to black out.
The blackness finally claims me as I fall to the floor.
I feel Chris shaking me. "Emily! Emily, he screams at me. I can't move but I flicker my eyes open to let him know I'm still here. "God you have lost a lot of blood. I'm taking you to the hospital. Put your arm around me," he commands.
I manage to put one arm around his neck as he pulls me into his arms. "Hold on Emily, don't you leave me. Stay awake," he says as he kisses my forehead.
The car ride I can barely remember but I start to come to as we enter the emergency room of the hospital. "I need help!" Chris shouts.
The nurse at the desk heads our way. "Over here," she calls to him.
She leads us into a exam room. Chris lays me down on the bed. "I'll be right here. Don't you go to sleep on me," he says. "I'll go get the doctor," she tells us as she leaves the room.
I'm in and out of Consciousness. I vaguely remember the doctor examining me.
"She's hemorrhaging, we need to get her into surgery right now," she tells Chris who pales. "Is she going to be alright? he asks. "Its to early to tell, the doctor will know more once he's got her in. We will keep you informed," she tells Chris. That's the last thing I remember before I black out.
I'm slowly stirred from my sleep by Chris running his fingers through my hair.
I'm still groggy and find that I'm really sore and in pain.
I quickly flicker my eyes open.
Chris is staring down at me with such a sad face. It takes me by surprise. "Emily, you scared me," he whispers as he strokes my hair once more.
I grab his hand and pull it to my chest. "I was so scared, I thought I was going to die," I say. "The baby!" I choke out.
I sit up in spite of my pain as I move. Chris moves then drops to his knees in front of me. Taking my hands into his, he pauses.
"Emily the doctor needs to talk to you. I think he should tell you what happened," he says.
I stand up as Chris steadies me. "Emily! Easy," he says. I have this sick feeling that I lost the baby. My heart already starts to break.
The doctor comes in. "How do you feel?" the doctor asks. "I guess ok, what's going on?" I ask.
"The placenta came detached causing you to miscarry the baby. You started to hemorrhage. Thanks to Chris, he got you here in time. You lost a lot of blood. We had to give you some blood to stabilize you," he says. I choke back the tears. I feel my knees buckle as Chris tightens his arms around me.
"I'm sorry but there was so much blood loss that it was so hard to stop it. You have a lot of scaring to your uterus that it could be possible that you may not be able to have anymore kids," he says. I'm now in shock and I can no longer take his words in. "I'm truly sorry for your loss, if there is anything I can do, don't hesitate to contact me. Here is my phone number," he says as he hands Chris his card.
He leaves me and Chris alone. I can't even cry. I know I have lost a part of not only myself but Dimitri. The thought is sickening.
"Emily, are you ok?" he asks. My face falls and I know I can take no more. I have had enough of all this heartache. I can cry no more tears. I can no longer feel this pain. I have gone completely numb. I don't care anymore. "Take me home," I say softly.