Friday, June 28, 2013

Dimitri Other Side - Chapter Thirty Four

I get to my feet and walk out of the bathroom. I'm still shaking from the attack and all the emotions that are running through me. It was so close I can't believe I'm still alive and intact. I feel my head start to spin. Dimiti, my dark night has come to rescue me. I sway as he steady's me.

Dimitri moves in front of me and then drops to his knee. He holds my hand and then rests his head on my belly. I almost want to jump but something deep down starts pulling at me. The old feelings for Dimitri are resurfacing. It's starting to scare me. I can't do this. I can't let my heart fall for him.

"Emily, please don't pull away from me." He's so sad. This side I'm not use to seeing him show is unnerving me. Does it not matter what I have told you. Please, I can't loose you again," he begs. I start to put my hand up to feel my fingers run through his hair to comfort him but stop. "I can't do this. I can't live this way," I whisper. 

He stands up as I drop to my knees. He places his hands on my shoulders. I can feel that he's still sad. "I can protect you," he says. "No you can't, I will never be safe as long as I'm alive. Why don't you just kill me," I sigh. "Emily I could never hurt you. Don't you see that I can't live without you," Dimitri whispers.

Suddenly, without warning he pulls me up from the floor dragging me by the hand out of the room. "Where are we going?' I ask as I try to keep up. He doesn't answer as he unlocks a room and leads me into a beautiful bedroom.

"This is where I sleep, you will be safe in here with me. I want you to be with me all the time. I'm stunned as I wrap my head around this. "This is where you and Jen sleep?" I ask with anger laced in my voice.

I see Dimitri took it just as I thought he would. He guessed what I was thinking. "You think! No I have......not slept with Jen like you think. Yes she has slept in my bed. But that is it," he hisses. I jump and find myself stepping back away from him.

"Do I mean that little to you! Did I not show you that I loved you?" he shouts as he shows his fangs.

"I'm............sorry," I gasp as I step back from him.

Dimitris face softens. "Emily, look, this is a little hard to just explain all at once. It's all happened so fast. I thought you were dead. And here you are in front of me living and breathing. I thought my whole world was gone. I was hoping that you were alive and well, here you are. My one hope became a reality when I saw you that one night. I had to follow you for a bit to make sure......well with the purple hair........., and you have matured quite well. But when I was certain I had to...........have you with me," he says.

"So you have been looking for me all this time?" I ask. "Not at first. I had to adjust to what I am. I had to get myself under control, and to deal with what happened. I will tell you the story one day but not tonight. I have not been with no other since you, I have no room for anyone else. When I came here I was forced to choose a bond. Jen is my bond, she is linked to me by a spell that keeps her safe and for what ever I choose. I have choose to be kind to her. She shares my room and that is all. I feed off her when I am not able to hunt and that is hardly at all. She talks to me to keep me company when I was lonely but that's it," he says. I'm floored by this as I feel a little bit of my jealousy lessen.

Dimitri pulls me into his arms holding me tight and I find that it's a comfort this time. "I'm sorry for all of this. I wish I could have been stronger while I was human. That we could have lived a happy life together with your family. But they won. I will not let them have you," he says. They will not let us be together, you have Jen. I can't replace her. Some have made that already clear," I whisper as I inhale his scent.  "Let me worry about that," he says. 

"Take a walk with me," he says as he grabs my hand lacing his fingers in mine. He leads me outside with only the stars lighting our way. It's a beautiful night with a warm breeze that flows through my hair. "Lets spend some time together so you can get to know me for me and not for what I was," he says.

"There is so much I would love to know, but I just don't know if I can love you as a Nightwalker," I tell him. I peek up at him and he's not surprised. I was expecting a hurt look but he's not. He's got almost a small smile playing on his lips.

"There is much I want to tell you. I think you will see everything in a different light when you know everything. Lets just take it slow," he smirks at me. Get to know him better, what else is there to know other than he's a Nightwalker that drinks blood. I know the rest. I feel like he's hiding something from me. But what could it be?  

 He comes to a stop and turns to me. He runs his cool fingers along my cheek that sends chills down me. It's got me excited but wearie at the same time. I lean into his hand as I close my eyes. I try to remember him like it was. I feel my heart ache for his touch. This is something I can't seem to get my head around. Am I damaged beyond love? I have no idea. I don't know if it's even possible to love him. I want to deep down but I have no idea if I can. 

"Emily," Dimitri snaps me out of my daydream. Come, I want to show you something. He leads me around the house and then sits down on the ground motioning for me to join him. I sit down beside him, he pulls me to him so that we are arm to arm. He leans in as I catch my breath. He points to the sky as a shooting star flashes by. 

"I see it, I call out to Dimiri. He follows my hand to another shooting star. He leans closer to where I can feel his breath on my bare shoulder. I feel a chill run over me. Then I'm hit with a drop of rain. I blink as another hits my cheek. 

Dimitri pulls me up and we run toward the house to get out of the rain. 

We bust through the door and he's smiling at me with water dripping off him. He's wet and smiling, and its a wonderful site to see him carefree and happy with me. 

I laugh for the first time in a long time. I throw my head back and giggle like a school girl. "What's so funny," Dimitri smirks at me. I can't stop giggling to answer him. "Well if I knew dragging you out in the rain would make you so happy I should have done it sooner," he laughs. "Oh Dimitri," I giggle. 

Dimitri grabs me crushing me to him. His lips kiss me fierce as I freeze in shock. I gasp between his kisses and feel myself being pulled in. My mind is racing as my body starts to betrays me. A small moan escapes my lips. 

Dimitri releases me and I'm almost frozen. In that kiss I felt it. His love, his world, all ready to be laid out for me. I'm hit with emotions that almost chokes me. Here it is, I must decide. Either to accept him like this or leave him forever. 

Friday, June 21, 2013

Blind Fury - Thirty Three

I'm in the bathroom finishing up when I hear the door being unlocked. I head toward the bedroom expecting Dimitri. He told me he would be coming by later.

I come out of the bathroom and I freeze in my steps when I see this strange man. His eyes are red and his skin is pale. He's another Nightwalker. He shoves me up against the wall holding my face in place. His body has me pinned to the point that I can't move. I stop breathing as his cool hand grips my chin holding me in place. 

I knee him in the stomach just enough for him to loosen his grasp so that I break free and dart toward the bathroom. I'm hoping that he left the door unlocked so I can maybe escape. I know its a risky move.

I make it to the bathroom and with one swift move he grabs me pulling me toward him and down to the ground. His face is so close to mine as I see him bare his fangs. Just when I think he's going to sink his teeth into me. He pushes me further to the ground.

 He's got me by the throat and my hands pinned above my head. His cold eyes lock on me. Pushing my legs apart he presses his body to mine. I gasp..........

"Please! Don't hurt me," I plead. "Oh my little pretty thing, you have no idea what plans I have for you. Not only are you mouth watering, your beautiful," he says with a cold smile that sends chills all over me.
Pulling my face to the side I can feel his breath on my neck. He licks my neck as he runs his hand up my thigh. I try to wiggle out of his hold but he's to strong.

"Were going to have some fun," he says as he reaches the top of my thigh. I feel the warm tears run down my cheeks as I try to brace myself for the horror about ready to happen. I close my eyes and try to imagine I'm somewhere eles.

Just when I think he's about ready to take me. I hear a welcomed voice. I have never been so happy to hear his voice as I am now. I can feel the man being pryed off me.

"You dare!" Dimitri shouts at the guy as he pulls him off the ground by his throat. "Release me you fool," the man growls. "She's mine, and only mine," Dimitri hisses.

I scramble to the far corner of the bathroom as they face off with each other. "She's not yours. She's fair game. You have no bond to her," he says.

Dimitri looses it. He slams the guy right into a beam. With a loud thud the man grunts as he makes contact. Then Dimitri grabs the guy and slams him again. I can only watch the horror unfold.

After slaming him a couple more times. Dimitri grabs the man and pulls him up to face him. "Now about that bond. I don't need a bond. She's mine! I will not tell you again," Dimitri hisses. The guy looks stunned and decides the battle is not worth fighting.

I find myself shaking still on the cold floor. The man leaves, and within a minute Dimitri has me pulled into his arms. I'm trembling with fear, and with adrineline making me shake. I have no idea how to feel about all the things that have happened in a matter of a few minutes. "Are you alright. Please tell me he didn't hurt you," Dimitri asks. His cool hands stroke my back and hold my face.

"Thanks to you I am," I say as I pull him close to me. A creature of darkness has become my salvation. I know I shouldn't let my guard down but in the same breath I can feel that ache in my heart as we hold each other not saying a word.

He pulls me up off the floor and with those eyes, his once brown lovley eyes that are traced with red stair at me. How can he still have this effect on me. "Be with me," he says as he pulls me closer.

"Please, I need you. I may be a Nightwalker.........but I love you. I can't be without you. We were destined to be with each other. I can never love anyone but you. You have my heart," he says. "I..............don't see a future that has us together in it," I reply as I feel my heart break.

He releases me, his face falls. He walks over to the sink leaning on it. His back is facing me. I can see his face in the mirror. I have never seen this side of Dimitri. It's pulling at every feeling I have for him. I see tears run down his face.

I sink to the floor as I see Dimitri cry. I didn't think it was possible until now. Maybe he dose still have a heart. But where would this leave us if I did choose this path to go down. How could we actually be together and be happy.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Confessions of the Heart - Chapter Thirty Two

She walks in and finds me crumbled on the floor sobbing. "I don't want to hurt your feelings. You will have to ask him. I can't discuss his personal business. He would kill me. It will be alright," she tries to reassure me. 

She seems nice enough. I scramble to my feet to stand next to her. "Let's get you ready," she says. "Here is where you can take a bath. I will need to go to the store and get some hair dye to strip the purple out. Everything you should need is in here." she says. "I am sorry." she mumbles as she leaves me in the bathroom alone. 

Sinking down into the hot bath I get lost in my thoughts. Dimitri keeps flashing in my memory as the pain laces through me each time I see those red eyes. I wonder what Chris is doing and if he's ok. I should have listened to him.

"Emily," Jen calls. "I'm in the bathroom." I call out to her. She comes in with some items in a bag. Ok let's get started. Let's get your hair dyed. I know you probably love the purple, but remember I'm only doing what I'm told." she says as she pulls the items out. 

She lays out new clothes that I'm to wear. I feel like someone dressing me up like a doll. After getting dressed I step back in front of the mirror to see old self staring back at me. I hate it. It brings back so many sad and scary memories. 

"You look amazing." Jen says with excitement. "I don't feel amazing," I mumble quietly. I just want all this over. Why in the world would he go to this much trouble if he's going to kill me. It's just drawing out my agony. 

"Please give him a chance. I have been with him since he came here after being turned. I know how he feels about you. He talks in his sleep." she says. 

My heart sinks. He talks in his sleep? I can't wrap my mind around it. He sleeps with her. She's his..................Oh no. She's talking to me but I can no longer listen to her. I'm just numb at this point. And she's asking me to give him a chance. She's done been brain washed. What have they done to this poor girl? "I have to go for now, I will meet up with you later," she says as she leaves me in the room standing there speachless.  

It's getting late and no sign of Dimitri, Jen or anyone else. It's so quiet it's erie. I have only been provided with this one outfit. I'm getting tired no matter how much I want to stay up. So I take off the dress leaving me in my underwear. I go over and sit down in front of the fireplace. I'm lost in my thoughts again. My life was torn upside down for the millionth time and with no happiness in sight. Would this be my life? The constant drama, the life threatening events and oh lets not forget everyone dying or becoming a damn Nightwalker.

I'm beyond tired so I head over to the bed. I climb in taking comfort in the covers. I toss and turn waiting for one of them to come in and get me. Every noise has me jumping.

After several hours I must have given into my body and fallen asleep.The sound of a door jars me awake. My body protests as I sit up to see Dimitri walking over to me. I gasp for air as it leaves my lungs.

I jump out of bed as he reaches me. He stands in front of me. He lifts his hand to my face which makes me jump. He strokes my cheek with his cool fingers. His face gives nothing away. Get dressed," he says. That's when I'm fully aware that I'm standing in my underwear. I scurry in the bathroom where I find a outfit set out. I pull on a pair of jeans with a pink top. 

When I come out of the bathroom I find Dimitri sitting by the fireplace. He sets there, not moving, not saying a word. He's so quiet that it unnerves me. I can't take the silence that is lingering between us. "Why are you doing this to me?" I ask. He stays quiet. More time passes by when he finally speaks. "You're not telling me something." he says, never making eye contact with me. My heart sinks. Oh no he knows about me and Chris and the baby. How did he find out? How am I going to tell him without hurting him? Knowing he's a nightwalker I still feel the guilt run all over me.

I sink to the floor at his feet. I can't even look at him. In a small voice,"I was pregnant, but lost the baby not to long ago." 

All the sudden Dimitri sits up and begins to stroke my cheek. "You were pregnant!" he says with a hint of hurt in his voice. "Yes, I was but............" I trail off. "It's ok. Things happen. Why would I be mad at you for that?" he asks.

This is it. I got to tell him. I................Me and............Chris well........," I stutter. "Emily tell me," he demands. "Me and Chris were together." I finally choke out as the tears start to run down my face.

Dimitri drops his hand and sets back into his chair. "Did you love him? Did you sleep with him? Was he the father?" he says with anger that I have not heard before. It's laced with venom that turns my stomach. "You were the father, I don't know if I loved Chris. I think I did. Or I still do. I'm so confused.  This is to much. You were........, are still dead." I say. "Did you sleep with him?" he asks with ice laced in his voice.

"Yes," I whisper. His face grows cold and hard. "Unfortunate thing. I actually like Chris." he sighs. "What's that mean?" I ask. "Nothing to concern yourself with," he replies.

"Don't you hurt Chris," I shout at him. He raises up to tower over me. He's hurt and angry. But I can't let him bully me. "Chris is innocent, you leave him out of this, promise me," I beg.

He says nothing. He runs his fingertips across his chin as he appears to be waging a inner battle.

"Please, don't hurt him. He.............."Dimitri looks away. "Stop Emily, I will not promise you anything," he says as he cuts me off. I'll meet up with you later. Get yourself cleaned up," he says as he leaves me standing alone in the room. Oh no, what have I done, what's he going to do?